Broken Heart

So its been forever since I have posted anything, one because I dont have Internet at home and two because, well... I dont have internet at home. I figure I should post a little bit about my little condition I have. Last Wed. at our first doctors apointment, we were in the middle of an ultra sound, when all of a sudden the whole right side of me went numb and tingely and I started getting a migrane type head ache. I told my doctor how I was feeling and she got really concerned. She immediatly wanted me to book an appointment with a heart specialist. As we were setting up the appointment, I Lost my breath and almost stopped breathing. Once I was able to catch my breath, I started to lose my ablility to talk and remember things. Once i started doing this, I really freaked my doctor out so she sent me down to the ER. There they did an MRI and a EKG and found everything was ok. My doctor still wanted me to go see this heart specialist, so today I went down to Salt Lake to see him and there found out that I have a hole in my heart and I guess it is pretty bad! They said they grade people on a scale from 1 to 5 and I am a 5+. The doctor said what I had experianced during my OB visit was a mini stroke. He said it is caused by the whole in my heart and if its not fixed i will end up having a major stroke. The bad thing about all this, is that I am pregnant. To fix the hole they have to do surgery which means some radiation is envolved. They have done this procedure on many pregnant women but hate to do it. I cant have the procedure though, until I am in my second trimester. Which means I have to wait about a month before I can get it done. I have an apointment scheduled February 26th. I have to be very careful between now and then and take baby Asprin to try and keep me from having another mini stroke or even a major stroke. We are pretty overwhelmed right now. I am just hoping through all this that the baby is ok. The doctor also said if I dont fix this before the baby is born then I have a HIGH chance of having a stroke during labor. They said that i have actually had this hole since I was born and 1 out of 4 people have it. Its all pretty crazy! I know! Oh and to top off all the bad news, I found out that my work (Rotech) is giving everybody a 5% pay cut. So not only am I having this way expensive procedure, I now dont have the money to pay for it. Dont worry though I am staying positive about this and applying for all the finacial aid I can get. I will try and to keep the blog updated.